Wednesday, December 23, 2015

How do you react to life?

 Image by Motivation App at ITunes 

Life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it ...Charles Swindoll 

Seems the older I get and the more I learn though my journey of life, I see this quote is so true to its every word. 

Wishing you good health and happiness.

Sunday, December 20, 2015

MS fight within is like walking on thin ice.

MS fight within is an invisible fight. It is like walking on thin ice. 

Photo by Sherry Robichaud

"The stronger you get, the more energy you will have." Says Autumn Calabrese. 

This statement is so true. I look back 3 years ago when I had my MS total under control. That is exactly how my body  functioned and worked for me. 

I felt my body was in a remission state. Being much stronger, had more energy and good mental clarity. I had high hopes that the old me was within reach and just maybe, the old me, was able to return!  

Photo by Sherry Robichaud

Today, once again I am struggling to do the smallest of things. Feeling that pleasant comfort and strength, currently is so out of reach. 

Photo by Sherry Robichaud
Although I know it is just around the corner. Telling myself, "I just need to trust the journey , keep moving forward."

In my mind, I revisit that old feeling quite often.  Thinking about how and what I did to get my body to that feeling of a healthy strong state. How it felt to have that Monster within, locked in the is trunk, with double wrapped titanium chains? Even though today, it seems like a loosing battle against this monster within, I know, I will soon get back control. I will get it contained in his box where he belongs, so he will no longer run rapidly through my body causing uncontrollable, sometimes painful side affects.

I have my plan laid out in motion. Keeping track each day of every approach I take to weaken his strength on me.  I am moving more and more each day. Feeding my body the nutrients it needs to fight back and starve that ugly beast.
Photo by Sherry Robichaud

I am feeling extremely tired right now but,I know, my struggle at this point, will stay for a time.  I will get strong enough to reach for that branch and I will pull myself out of this quick sand. Then, just as it has before, I will begin to gain control of my body and all its ability once again. 

I will continue fight the MS  by walk, reaching my step goals over the holidays on my FitBit. If not out side, I will walk on my treadmill. I am not giving in. I know what I want, and I am not going to stop. When I reach the point of that comfort I describe above, I will continue to build more even more strength. The more strength we have, the quicker we can fight back to keep the monster in his Box. 

It always feels as if we with MS are walking on thin ice and we never know when we will fall through.  Setting us back to the start of our struggle back to better health.

I will keep fighting that silent fight from within.  I "know" I will gain strength.

Wishing you good health and happiness always. 

MSandLivingLife... Sherry

Thursday, December 3, 2015

MS Lesson: Put your needs first. Exercise and Stress.

I have been finding that just doing the normal routine things in life have been put to the back burner lately.  I really have been slacking and pushing things off to the last minute. Taking my meds, eating, brushing my teeth and even pushing myself to hold off to go to the bathroom, which, has had its consequences .   Life for me has been busy lately. Not to mention I haven't even thought about the stressful experience of having to go out Christmas shopping yet and its only a few weeks away!

I honestly have been trying to hold off of that holiday stress of the stores and aggressive grumpy people who I think have forgot what the true meaning of Christmas is. For me and my family, so much has changed and taken from us. From loosing so many that we love to me having Multiple Sclerosis, we have love the fact of just being together for a evening, meal and laughter at Christmas. 

Yes, my health is paying for my new habits of over scheduling my days and procrastination! My MS Monster has awoke and is actively playing around within my body like a puppet on a string. My mind can't seem to focus on one thing for very long and wonders off to never never land now and then.  Leaving me feel that I haven't accomplished much of anything that day. These types of days are very frustrating and disappointing.

Today, I look back  to see what I did that the times I felt better. Feeling happy , positive, more active, more alert more like the old me that could handle any unexpected situations that me be thrown in the mix.   I see these where the days and times that I put my needs first before I did anything that day. I got myself into a routine. I took my medications first, exercising of some kind, usually working up to an hour a day, ate and went off with my day. Made sure I ate healthier, fresh enriched foods that helped my body.  I put my healths needs first and had things planned out.

I was successful, much like this morning! Got up. rested, visited with my husband while we had a coffee together and ate.  I ate a banana, like most days, I try to eat something small before exercise. 

Take my pre-workout drink, I go walk or walk on the treadmill. Drink a post-workout drink, so I am not so sore the next day. 

I took my medications after a shower, got dressed as if I where going to go out and to some errands. Although today I didn't have plans to leave the house it seem to have set my day off on the right foot. Placing me in the right direction to have a successful day. This has been something I been striving for and will continue.

We all need to plan out our days by putting ourself first.  If we don't put our self and our needs first, we can't enjoy doing things and be there not only for ourselves but most important others.  I love helping my family and friends and it is most disappointing to me when I can't be there for them. I have learned I have to put myself first so I can be there for others.  

I also find by putting my need to exercise my body each day also helps me deal with not just everyday stress, but major stressors that can send us with Multiple Sclerosis, into a down word spiral. These are unwanted as it not only activates the MS Monster within but sends us into a relapse which can potentially leave us with permeant nerve damage or disabilities. 

It IS NOT a selfish act to put your needs first.  For me that has been a hard lesson to learn; You must put yourself first, so you can live as the happy and fulfilled person you are meant to be.

I would love to hear how you have benefitted by putting your needs to fit exercise into your daily routine.


Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Today's MS Treatment

As morning sun was rising I could feel it's heat on my back as I reached half way up that dreaded hill. I haven't walked this road in three days now.  So, it was not only a challenge to reach the hill, but to get to its top, was even harder. 

It's been a long time it seems since I used this hill for my treatment againest my M S. By walking this road and hill as a part of my treatment to fight Multiple Sclerosis, in the post I have had success to contol my symptoms and stay active. I felt wonderful and energetic. 

I desire to have that feeling back. I know it's going to be hard to reach that point once again. But, I am not giving up! 

Today I had my Buddy (dog), Moose with me to keep me company. The beautiful weather outside was perfect.  I was sure to take my Recovery Drink upon my return, as it seems to help with the soreness of my leg muscles. 

I am so thankful for this wonderful weather we are having. Have your self a fantastic day! 

MS and Living Life 

Sunday, November 8, 2015

Hydro One Power Outage

“Cmon hydro one. get your shit together. Heat and running water would be nice I am sure your families all have warmth and water so get your asses in gear and do your dam job and give us hydro that we pay up the ass for.”  ... was a comment I reed this morning on Social Media, Facebook.

At this day and age of social media, as well as living in a small community in Northern Ontario, I was totally disappointed that people can be still so rude. The following comments on the feed where people, whom feel the same as I.  Feeling shocked and noting this behavior is uncalled for.  They where defending the hydro workers that are working hard to regain our hydro back for us.

First of all, these workers are working all hours to restore our hydro.  Possibly leaving their own families in the dark with no heat or running water either.  Yes it is their job but bashing them isn't going to help get the work done any faster.

Second of all, as mentioned in the article bellow they have also hired other companies to come in to assist in this restoration process. To try and make this happen quicker.

I am sitting here wondering how so many people can be so greedy and self centred as to think ,"they" should get things restored quicker then anyone else?  

We live in Northern Ontario where this does happen! And often!

Yes we pay too much for our hydro services.  However, these people are human and they too are paying the same rates as we are.  They do have families in the dark, no running water, cold and, so on!  I get it!

Let us get this straight people.  Compassion and a little appreciation goes a long way.  Giving these workers a hard time isn't helping anything.  I have friends who do this line work of all ages. Let me tell you some of the stories they have told of how rude people are to them, is nothing but disrespectful.

Stopping and telling them thank you for their work is an act of kindness that so many have forgotten. This small gesture not only makes them feel appreciated but helps them quickly and efficiently complete the job.

Take this outage as a  note to better prepare for the next one. Because it is going to happen.  This Ontario and this is fall and getting close to winter.  Pull together and help your nabours and friends by offering them some warmth. Those who have the capabilities of generators offer a quick shower or a supply of water. Offer batteries candles for lights. Most stories here in our area have back up generators to help provide food and supplies in these times.

Look at this as what did you learn out of this power outage?

Where you ready for it?

What do you need if there where another outage?

Do you have enough supplies on hand like; water, can foods, blankets batteries and gas for your generators?

Do you have enough propane so you can boil or cook with your outdoor barbecue?

Lets get your own emergency plain and supplies in order so you will feel better prepared for out next outage.

So ... I am thankful for having the utilities we do have that makes life so much more enjoyable. 

Leaving you today in positive thoughts to better prepare for unplanned outages.
Please share with me how you plan ahead for our northern outages.

Wishing you well.

MS and Living Life..

Updated Power outage information and image gathered from
Almaguin News

Friday, November 6, 2015

How Apple Technology with MS makes my life so much more enjoyable

I am so thankful for my Apple Products!

I just red a complete blog post, that took me five minutes and I don't remember anything about it! Have you ever had that problem?

Man, I hate it when this happens to me! So, yes I go back and try and reed it again.  Today seems okay but, somedays I find my eyes wont even focus on the letters on the screen at alone the words.  Realizing my eyes are reading but I an not taking in the information.  Also at times my eyes are jumping all over and can not focus on the lettering.   Some days making it bigger does help! It does get frustrating. So, I enjoy the days the monster within isn't trying to play jokes on me.  


I must say, apple and their I products like my; MacBook Air, iPhone, or iPad, I just couldn't want to live without anymore!  I am sorry people that are android lovers. I don't know much about android, but I am sold on Apple.  Android may have these features?

I absolutely love Apples built in function of  selecting text, then having it to read to me! This helps me write these blog posts.  Helps with my spelling as well as making the content sound the way I want it to for, you the reader.  I am sure there are programs one can use for this use as well for other systems. Plus, for myself, I now find it hard to learn new technology so I prefer to stick with apple products for now.  I started out years ago using Windows.  Apple and Mac products in my opinion at this time, far pass the functions I now depend on.

Selecting Text to read to you! 

You see, often when people with Multiple Sclerosis, M S, have vision and comprehension problems. Sometimes due to a flare up or even just being a symptom, the M S monster within is trying to toy with us on that day. 

I still have so much to learn on this lap top with the new technology of these times. Only if I could have had this when  I was in school, like they do now! I think back, and remember all the struggles I had. Which played with my own self worth and confidence.

I remember, one grade being an exceptional student.  I was reading and writing learning so much then, BAM! Starting the next school year not being able to read a thing. Not remembering what I reed and was struggling with Math. Thinking there was something wrong with me.  I am thankful my teachers noticed, my struggles and gave me the extra attention I needed.  But non of us had a clue it was, possibly,  M S!

Another function I love about my iPhone is  that I can talk into it and it types everything out. Then if it is an email or text, Siri will send it off for me!  Although I haven't figured all my functions on my MacAir, I am happy with the iPhone and iPad being capable of doing what I use it for. I mainly use my iPhone. Looking things up on google, it is a treat to have my phone read all the information for me.  On my bad days it actually helps me remember what is in the article.

Sitting at my MacAir, or what some may call it, [Lap Top] I do find while creating my blog post, I am more creative using my fingers to type. It gives me a more hands on feeling that I am speaking to my readers. 

Speaking of speaking to my readers.  Just as most phones now have the capabilities of creating videos.   Which honestly, is something I would like to implement in my blog posts in the future. For those like me that have bad days, and would rather watch the video instead of trying to reading an article.

I would like to hear how technology has helped you! Please feel free share this with me by commenting in the comment section bellow this post.

Wishing you a wonderful day.

MS and Living Life. 

Thursday, November 5, 2015

November 5th, Thankful the Beautiful Fall Weather

Today I am so thankful for so much. The weather was so beautiful.  This morning we woke with the sun burning the fog off the water and trees around our pond.

I sat on the porch to drink my coffee as the sun beamed through the tree tops. The birds where singing welcoming its, presence.  The warmth reached out and started the day off just right.  

Oh yes! I got out for my walk!  I managed to push myself up this gigantic hill, without stopping!

Reaching the top always give the beautiful view of Lake Bernard!  Gives a great since of a achievement for myself.  My legs where killing me as I pushed myself not to quit. 

Not to mention I had the company of my daughter with me.  She always seems to be there to push me to exercise and keep my legs moving.  Which is great, because she doesn't allow me to give in to the MS monster within, who seems to think I shouldn't be active.  It is like a constant battle with MS to keep it from laying around on the couch. 

I am so thankful for the sun and beautiful temperatures today of 20'C/62'F.  Also for the company because I am sure I wouldn't have attempted to walk to the top of that hill if I where by myself today.   This did allow me to complete my old three and a half mile walk.  I am also thankful for the recovery drink I consumed after I got home to repair my leg muscles. I know it always helps for the evening and the next days activities.

What did you do today in this wonderful weather? Please let me know in the comments bellow.

Have a wonderful day!

MS and Living Life.

November Thankful Challenge 2015

November Thankful Challenge 2015

November Thankful Challenge with msandlivinglife

This November I have decided I will do a Thankful Challenge.  In which I will be posting things that I am thankful for in each post. Soon the holiday season will be near.  Not everyone has a wonderful holiday.  I am thinking this challenge may help prepare and help those face the season with a positive outlook. 

I have learned that we must exercise focusing on the positive things we see and have in our lives, to help fight depression.  It is much easier for people to fall into the routine of seeing the negative things that we experience day to day.  Which then can put us into a down word spiral that never seems to stop.  

It is a fact, you can google, that we can retrain the wiring in our brains to see the positives we experience and see.  I don't mean, ignore the bad things we face in our lives. But, I truly have become to believe that all things happen for a reason.  That reason can be good,bad, Positive, or Negative.  It is a choice, I have learned to make.  I admit it, it can be a hard task to do. With time it has become easier when carried out.

When I feel down or just plain bummed out, I often go to my gratitude journal. Start each day to write three things each day down that is positive that has happened.  Even, if it is the smallest of things.

Like; "I woke up this morning. The sun was shining and I managed to get dressed."

This can be our last thoughts while we lay down each night as well.  Just trying to lay there and think of three things that happened to you that day. Even the smallest of things count!

Within time, you will find yourself finding more important things you will be thinking of pointing out. For instance; "So and so called me today, I actually got allot accomplished today. I had a good laugh today! I am so happy I didn't go to the gym today.  There was a fire there today."

Try this and let me know in the comments bellow how you make out?

Have a wonderful day,

MS and Living Life... Sherry

Thursday, October 29, 2015

Why I cut my long hair off?

"Eeeeeek!" AsI heard the sound of my six inch hair sliding down the back side of the hairdressers cape as the clippers buzzed. Yep! It was too late to change my mind! I quickly raised my hand and ran my fingers through the back of my head!

"Wow, its all gone!" I thought. As the girl asked me  for the third time, if I was okay with it being gone.

Sensing, she too was just as hesitant on quickly cutting it so short. ....
"Yes!" I said "To late to turn back now, isn't it?" and laughed. "It will grow back fast if I don't like it anyway! No worries! Its' going to be a  big change for me!"

I was pleased when she explained to me how thick my hair is and how full my new cut would look. I was happy as when I started my drug modifying therapy drugs, (DMT's), Copaxzone injections, the first few months my hair was coming out by the handfuls.  Scared the crap out of me! I honestly thought, I would never have a thick head of hair again.  So this was a relief.

Surprisingly, the big heap of hair that she swept up when she was done, made me feel good. Happy to have it off, as I knew it would be so much easier to look after and do in the mornings. Good hair for me is the best way to start my day.

Now, a couple days later, I often catch myself running my fingers through my hair still. A habit I have gained having long hair. But when reaching the back where I used to let it drop as it reaches the end.  Awkwardly, now feeling its shortness, I find my self saying; "Oh yes! Its' gone!"

Still this being so new, I also find myself taking a double take in any one of my mirrors around my house, taking a second take, saying; "What the hell?" Then I quickly remind myself, "You cut it off." Shake my head at myself, smile, giggle a little and go on with what I was doing.

This isn't the first time I have done a drastic cut to my hair when I worked hard to let it grow long. This time, I just couldn't let it grow any longer. It took me so long to do, dry and manage. More energy then I wanted to spend, on just doing my hair each morning. Also, my hands and fingers don't always want to work with me on somedays, with MS. So assuming this is going to make it easier too. I am hoping that the little headaches will not come back, feeling they where being caused from the heaviness of my hair.

You see, I feel I  had a M S pseudo relapse a couple weeks ago.  I knew it a new hair cut would give me that spark and the lift I needed to keep pushing myself, mentally and physically to regain control of my health.

I am so happy with this hair cut. I am glad I stepped out and took the chance to change something that is such importance to me.   I was debating  to do it for some time.  When contemplating cutting it, I replayed  the voices of a few good friends, in my mind telling me, how much better I look with short hair. Thank you for those who are honest and chance to voice their opinions. Plus, thanks to hubby for telling me it looks sexy! ;)

Yes, I cut my hair!

I know doing my hair is so much quicker to do.  Leaving my morning routine quicker and easier. Now it will be easier for my to follow this one saying,  No matter how you feel. Just get up. Dress up, Show up and Never give up!

A change is good!

Have yourself a great day!
MS and living life..... Sherry

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Fall season is a glimmer of hope with MS

As autumn/fall arrives, we with MS always look forward to the ability to get out doors and once again push ourselves to be active. A relief of the summer heat, a brighter hope for a new beginning to life and strive for a healthier living. Accompanied by the cooler temperatures changing colours of the leaves.  This feels like, the moment the butterfly realizes he is no longer in his cocoon, and stretches is wings for the first time. 

The beginning of a journey that draws us strength and energy to reunite us with the energetic and happy person we know is still deep inside. I speak for those of us with Multiple Sclerosis that are heat sensitive. 

As each year, or season, weather differs. But once again this fall weather the quick fluctuation in temperatures and weather plays a toll on those like myself and my Multiple Sclerosis. This seems to play a roll in weakening our immune systems that is already over worked from constantly fighting our own systems within ourselves daily.  In addition to the fall having fluctuating temperatures and weather comes contact with others.  Being out more with others,  risks them caring every flue or cold bug that gets thrown into our body, our immune system kicks in high gear and starts to fight off everything it sees foreign. 

Keep in mind, people with MS already have weakened immune systems.  In time my body does start to show many MS symptoms do to its activation and fight within. For myself I see this will continue until the "flue or cold bug" becomes full strength. Usually it also takes my MS symptoms away after the illness is taken its full course.

MS symptoms are; nausea  fatigue,  vertigo, brain fog, possibly causing inflammation and extreme pain. Sadly, it often triggers a relapse, or as some call it, an MS Episode. This can last from 3 days to several weeks or even months.

Sometimes these attacks on our bodies do return back to all regular functions.  Reality is each time we experience these flare ups, we risk loosing any one of them, that I have mentioned. Even the most scariest potential loss for me is; the chance of loosing my site and ability to walk. Not a fun time wondering if a bodily function that has been lost, will again return.

I always try to up my vitamin supplements intake; eat a neutrally denced diet along with regular activity to help counteract and assist in my health and well being.  Doing so also helps me bounce back faster from these ill times more so then if I don't follow this routine. In addition, I also find, keeping close to home and little contact with high risk of germ carriers helps too. I make a habit to I remove my gloves and wash my hands upon returning home when I am out.  This way, I can continue to enjoy outside activities keeping my health in check. 

I enjoy walking the most.  I get my cardio, strength and endurance training all in one.  As, long as I listen to my body and don't over do it. I try my best to monitor my progress and slowly increase my activity. Taking recovery drinks, help me maintain the ability to enjoy my walks on a daily bases.  The recovery drink I take, I believe helps my leg muscles recover.  Just as body builders experience taking a recovery drink after a workout.  It is one of my life savers in my plan to stay active.

Like stress, over doing it, can set me back. Flaring up debilitating symptoms within 3 days after the event. I also find if I stop my regular routine activity of walking any distances for anymore then a 3 day streak, I have to start back at the beginning. It can be quite a juggling act. 

Yes remaining active and healthy like, living with MS, can feel and sound like quite a complex process. For me the achievement pays off. The enjoyment of being outdoors, enjoy the weather of fall, and keeping my ability to walk on my own. I also get so many other benefits from my achievements. Weight loss and tone, feeling happier, calm, clarity and feel more confident. Not to forget the quicker recoveries of MS attacks.  

Backing my belief that, I am in control of my disease and it doesn't have control over me.

I have to live with Multiple Sclerosis and I can't fight it.  It isn't going away.....just I always know it's within, waiting for a chance to brake free. I have been thankful for the fall season, as it really does allow me to take control of this monster, giving better chances to live a fun fulfilling, active and healthy winter season. 

How do you like the season of autumn and does it affect you and your health?

Wishing you well, as always.....

MS and Living Life.

Friday, September 18, 2015

Focus on Progress not Perfection

Slow and Steady wins the race..

I am definitely not on the road I had planned out originally but I have learned that we need to lessen our loads that society makes us feel we should live up to.  Looking back I have learned to be more flexible on how I get things done and the time it takes me. Not to put so much emphasis on the small details of things as it only causes disappointments.

Being diagnosed with a chronic illness with no cure like MS, makes you realize you have absolutely no control over some of the things that happen in our lives.  However, we can choose how we are going to deal with it. Having this kind of diagnosis at a time in my life where I was crossing the finishing line of better health and wellness, showed me how we can get blindsided, turning our lives into turmoil.

I have never gave up on my journey.  I found the journey just showed me that perfection of what I looked like, wasn't a priority anymore.  Even though I sometimes have to modify workouts and laid out my days out accordingly to how I feel. It has taught me that maybe I was just competing with myself to start with!

Learning that fitness is a big influence on controlling many health issues. I have had to except  my fitness  levels and activities as they differ each year or season.  Using that as a measurement of where I stand, seems to put less emphasis on its' disappointments and more on what I actually achieve. I see that my new approach to making the most out of life has less affects on debilitating me in my tracks. I admit, it's not always easy to pick out the positives affects that has guided many of us through such devastating times.

We become unhappy and feel as though we are dying due to lack of moving forward. Not spending time dwelling on the negative repercussions, it allows you to live in the moment and look forward to tomorrow. If you focus more on the good things that are happening, more good things seem to show up. 

Training ourselves to thing positive is like a muscle, the more you work it the easier it becomes.

Opening yourself up to this positive way of thinking allows you to not only progress but, enjoy what you have achieved.  It really does back up the belief; "Everything happens for a reason in its own time."  I am amazed at the new doors that have opened for me to help others see a new look on their own lives just by me sharing the things I have learned. 

So.... Yes, I do see what I have lost down this long dark road with with a chronic illness with mountains I thought I would never get over. However, the most important thing is what I have learned and I wouldn't be who I am today, if this road wasn't taken. It really is about what progress I am making and not so much on trying to make things perfect.

"So, Strive for Progress, Not Perfection!"

Do you focus on perfecting everything you do or do look forward in the progress you gain?  I would love to hear how you focus on progress in the comments below.

Leaving you today with positive approach....

MS and Living Life.... with Sherry

#MS #fitness #positive #MSLife

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Me a Blogger? MS Blogger? Writer?

Wow! Who would have thought, me a writer? Blogger? Never!
I have become big on self development and self teaching.  So yes, at this point and time that I am at the beginning stages of *blogging*.   I like many had no idea where to start! 

I use to have my own internet web design company in which I taught others how to make the most of their computers in the home or office. Also the giving them an understanding with basics of the Internet and safety.

"Education is one thing no one can take from you in life."

It was a very busy and successful business in a the time the Internet was becoming available locally to the private sector in rural areas. I started it after attending college after I had my family. My teaching method was all hands on. I not only had my own classroom of eight computers but I also went into local businesses. Taught their staff how to switch from type writers to make the most out of their new, (office tool) computer! I was the village go to girl, Guru,  on how to do things on the computer. 

I always have been terrible at grammar and spelling, still am now. *Sigh* I always depended on the computers programmes to correct what it could. It really didn't serve me as well as I had hoped. A wonderful retired school teacher offered me tutoring which helped extremely.  

In time, I hired a wonderful lady, younger then I, in which  editing my writings was a small part of her duties. Just as she taught me so much about English and writing content, I think she too, enjoyed learning about web design and programming. 

I decided to chose to closed the business after the government started offering my main services I provided for free in our local library's. Although it wasn't as detailed, I decided to spend more time to focus in our family business. 

Sadly, my major MS Relapse in 2010, my memory was vastly affected and I had lost  all of what I had known about office work, web design and the computer.  I have to ask my daughter how to do things on them now. More then I would like to for the simplest things. 

So lately I have been dabbling with blogging. Thinking it would be a a great way to record my health. Not only by the seasons but the years.  Having a record of my MS journey, gives me great insight on what affects my mental and physical health. It has it been good therapy and a wonderful learning curve. 

I admit, Its been a process to try and do this type of technology thing again. Often I get emotionally  frustrated with how much MS has taken from me. On the other hand, slowly I am relearning. Which is a positive thing! My husband and I, now see what I use to do and appreciate all that I am able to do each and everyday. 

I know my spelling, grammar and English isn't what it should be to be a "professional" writer but it being a Blog, that's ok. I know I will improve! I am a self learner, determined. In this case I believe, they are all good qualities.

"We are never too old to learn."

Today I am taking a step deeper into this Blogging thing, as I bought a book.  "The Golden Rules of Blogging" by Robin Houghton. Thinking that maybe, just maybe, having a book in my hand might help me remember better, what I am now learning. I also listen to this new in thing called, Pod-casts about blogging as well. 

I am learning new things each day.  I am so excited about this new adventure and wanted to share this with you. What new things are you learning or teaching yourself? 

Wishing you the best in health.....

MS and Living Life.. with Sherry

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Seeing progress with MS keeps the fight going

Thinking back, being so busy living life, years ago, I barley glanced at that person in the morning mirror. Often ignoring that reflection looking back at me. She was screaming at me, that I needed to enjoy amazing gifts around me that I had been given. Thinking now that she was trying to tell me to slow down and enjoy the pleasures of our growing family and my good health. I, like many of you,was more worried about helping my husband to provide our family of the things we needed and wanted in our lives, to live the lifestyle we had longed for.

Yes, I was suddenly blindsided with the illness of Multiple Sclerosis (MS).  Hitting me like a furious raging storm, leaving within every inch of my body untouched. Its' aftermath left degree that affected every one in the family. Leaving a silent monster living within myself trying to destroy my body and life.....that I would forever have to silently fight each day forward.

I began to seek out others and learn what they have done to gain control of their MS. I didn't stop! I will never stop learning! It isn't about how I look when I look in the mirror now.  Its about who I have become and where I am going. 

I too have learned what triggers this monster within me now and how to gain control over it.  I now have learned so much of what helps me and what doesn't.  Now I try my best to eat healthy and exercise daily. When I feel like things are getting tough, I look back and see myself at my worst and compare myself now. It isn't about being perfect but how much progress I have made!

Create new story, create a new life!

It's a choice, I have made to never stop trying to fight for the life I now have and want.  I have a new life, with new hopes and dreams. My road that I travel now maybe harder to travel but my destination has not changed.  

I may not jog 4 miles a day any more but I enjoy the beauty in each day.  I no longer take special people in my life for granted.  I take time to reach out to those who need a ear to listen and kind words of encouragement. 

"We are not remembered by what we do for people, but how we make them feel."

You too can do this.  Don't ever let anyone tell you that you can't do something!  I believe we set our own limits. We believe what our minds tell us.  You too have the strength and dedication to take charge of your own life no matter what it throws at  you.  

How do you fight through your struggle? 

Its' never to late.....
Wishing you good health...
MS and Living Life Blog with Sherry

Monday, August 17, 2015

Nature whispers to you, if you're open to listen...

The other night the temperature finally cooled off and something compelled me to strike out to explore the trails on our property. I snowshoe on them in the winter months.  Which that is a season that looks and feels much different then it does now, mid August. 

Walking I find therapeutic and try to walk on a daily basis to help control my Multiple Sclerosis. With the heat wavs we are having this summer I haven't been walking as often as I would like. But that evening it was so peaceful and it was something I really needed. 

As the sounds of nature called out around me. It was in a way, that silenced my inner voice, calming my racing thoughts, giving me a sense of comfort. Feeling I was where I needed to be at that moment in time. 

I felt a presents, a spirit or something greater, come over me. Its' presence, I hadn't exsperianced in a long time. Whispering"...... there is something more to life, then what you have experienced so far....something, exceptional planned for you in time to come. You just needed to be patient and believe ..... " Thus, leaving me question; "Has my life I have been living, all been laid out for me before somehow? Is this all to teach me what I need to know?"

With this rare kind of openness,  I began to notice the smallest of things that nature has created and we seem to over look them in our busy lives. 

Making me realize what a small part of the world we are in. That I am in!  That there is so much more out there to see and experience. Thinking how lucky I am to have this here and experience this place in nature that so many will never see or know it exists. What a gift I have had, growing up in the country surrounded with nature. Somehow it had healed so much pain I had endured at such a young age. 

"Sometimes you Win and sometimes you Lean. " ~JC Macwell  For me, I choose to Learn 

I now know some people will never leave the cities or black top roads to experience what it is like to walk among the forest and trees. To pick wild raspberries from their branches, tasting  how juicy they are .  

In some way, all this makes me feel safe but the same time so alone living in this northern small town.  Our nabours great people which can not be seen but heard from a distance. Yet, leaving one feeling close, if one is in need. We are nabours who know each other and pop in for a visit. I don't do that quite as often as I should. They do leave me feeling closer to them then some of our family members. 

It's impossible to walk in the forest and be in a bad mood at the same time. ~Unknown 

It is amazing how getting out side and going for a walk can be so calming and help clear our minds of our daily struggles. 

Wishing you the peacefulness and the confidence you may need for yourself today. 

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Note to me! heat + humidity = tremors

This morning I woke up and I leisurely, made my way to our porch where I peacefully enjoyed a cup of coffee.  What a great way to start our days viewing our beautiful pond. Even more enjoyable when my husband and my children get to join me.

Just like most days I am rushing to get the errands done, soon I become aware that my legs aren't feeling normal.  They begin to feel weak and begin to shake. A shake that's not visible to anyone, but I can feel. Hanging the last peace of clothing on the line I can feel the summer heat turning up it’s power.

Thinking to myself; "I dam well better get my arse in gear so I can get what I need today before these legs get too shaky !” 

I have come to take pride in the old way of living. Where the woman looks after; the house, the food, making meals clean cloths and whatever else the family may need. Even now fighting my monster, these daily chores are high on my priority list to try and keep my life to the normal living we have had over the years.

Experiencing these tremors, reminds me that I have to put my physical needs first on my daily priority list, again. I need to start exercising, walking and myself first and my day. That way it’s done and out of the way.  The weakness and tremors only get worse as with heat/humidity. I know in the past with being in better physical shape, this weakness and shaking wasn’t as bad as today. 

To my surprise I came across an article on my Facebook news feed explaining this exact thing. Ataxia Tremors it is called. Reading it it backed up my own theory that I, was not getting enough activity before our heat wave have came….. if I had been more physically prepared I would not be experiencing these Ataxia Tremors as bad. With out it being visible to others, I feel I was luckier then others out there that have more problems that come with this symptom.   

Oh, yes! I knew I was going to struggle to complete my errands,  rushed to get everything done and return home before it became visible to others. I have always tried to hide what I feel and whats doing on with me, even before my diagnoses of Multiple Sclerosis. 

I always try to be that strong woman the community all looked upon, before my illness, not that it really matters. It’s a thing I try to do so I don’t get the pity response from everyone…….   

On this day with the  humidity quickly came the anxiety.  It started as I slowly walked up and put my stuff so the cashier could ring my things through. I don’t know why the anxiety started as I knew this girl and often chatted to her on a friend level.  She kinda gave me a funny look , like as if to say, "oh! She's having a bad day.'s ok, we all have our bad days.” , then smiled noticing that I was much slower then any other day and not quite myself. She didn't comment or say anything as I felt she was trying to ease  my pride and it was ok to me. 

I started to choke up.... I was trying not to say much.... 
I was thinking to myself; " At lest she knows that I have MS and  I am not drunk!  ...Dam you MS, for trying to do this to me !!! ……… 
I felt a lump in my throat get bigger and I began saying to myself; "Don't you cry!…..Don’t….. cry! Dam it don’t you cry! …Breathe…"

I know if I did cry , this poor young lady would want to say something….just hoping to ease the awkwardness, I could feel that we both where feeling. She is a very ….. kind soul.

I just wanted to get my errands done  that day and beet this "bastard" inside of me. He’s not just playing with my body he often plays with my emotions… get the attention I refuse to give this bastard within! 

Most people in our community know that I often keep to myself and can be stubborn. They also know that if I am bad enough and need help, that  I will  ask for it.  Just as the other symptoms we with MS have, the anxiety and the tremors are both are not visible to others at this stage, for me. I must say; "I am happy for that." 

When I got back home, I pulled out my phone and retread that article about Ataxia Tremors!  Wow! Yes I need to get back at being more active and get on top of my health with diet and exercise! I will do what I had done before….. start with walking!!!

So I am going to go back out in that heat and walk laps around my cool pool. I am going to drink lots of water remain positive …... I am going to get that Monster back in his box!!!  I will enjoy the summer and sun today! Just I'll do it MY WAY! 

Thanks again,